My Journey As A Science Student

27k views? Wow. I guess I’m leaving this blog in good hands. Thank you so much for the views and comments. I apologized if I’m not posting anything like figuratively million years. As you know I’ve been busy with my studies like 24/7 and it’s getting worst because I’m already in my final year. Alhamdulillah for everything. InsyaAllah I’ll be finishing my degree this year and that’s it. I’m not planning on getting my Masters. Na’ah. I’ve suffered enough. Haha.

Talking about studies, I remembered why I choose Science at the first place. Growing up with parents who are both teachers gives me some sort of pressure. What pressure? I’m having trouble to fulfill everybody’s expectation. Being labelled as ‘The Smartest’ student in primary school sounds kinda cool but the reality, its not. I admit that I enjoyed that title. Getting tons of congratulatory wishes, gifts also the most hardest part was to undertake the trusts given.

It was all flowers, rainbows and even confetti (haha) but wait till you facing the worst part; failure. People were assuming that you ALWAYS can do better in everything. If I’m not getting good grades or even fail the subject, all I get was like mental tortures or something. I’m not saying that I’ve been bullied because of that but it was like my previous performances were not good enough. It was bullshit yknow when everything you did were not appreciated enough. Starting from that, I’ve become less chatty and secretive. Honestly, I talk less since I was a kid. Even with my parents, I am the same. What can I say, this is me.

Alhamdulillah I’ve got straight A’s for my UPSR which brought me into a more challenging world. Boarding school was never had a place in my mind not to mention my heart. A normal morning school was the only thing I can think of till I get an offered letter to a boarding school in Kelantan. Damn you, good result. Please do not be to convincing or else I’ll be ended up in other state land that I’ve never been before, like EVER!

Seriously guys, I’d cried. It was out of my plan. I am not going to live in Kelantan INDEPENDENTLY, like seriously? Why and why this is ever happened to me? I was like being forced to go there for the sake of my future. Well, what do you aspect a 13-years old girl will do over there after all these years leaving in a cacoon? Why do I have to go outside of my comfort zone? It is called comfort zone for a reason, right?

Oh well oh well, I’m just gonna go anyway. Never disobeyed your parents, guys. Believe it or not, I was successfully graduated after 5 years spending my school time there. Should I told you my PMR and SPM results? Huhuhu. Never mind, I’m going to tell you anyway. Alhamdulillah I got 8A’s for PMR and 6A’s for my SPM. I know, I know. Masa SPM memang banyak main! I deserves that. Hahaha. The only thing that I was so glad about was when my parents finally can accept my average SPM result. No more forcing or being pushed to the ‘Successville’. Alhamdulillah.

Pursuing my studies in Diploma in Microbiology in UiTM later on. For starters, it would be so troubled but luckily, I was armed with my independence tools and skills from my boarding school experiences. Nothing can stop me! Alhamdulillah. I finished my diploma on time with four times of Dean List out of six. I know right. Semester 2 dan 3 banyak main jugak! Hahaha.

Now, I am currently in my degree studies in Biomolecular Sciences and only have one semester left. Alhamdulillah. Now that I am 23, I finally realized that all the forces, pressures, mental tortures and pushes are all that driven me to where I am today. Sometimes, stress is the only thing you need to extort the good and positive vibes out of you. I don’t know about you but that’s how I roll.

May the force be with you ❤

2015 in review

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The concert hall at the Sydney Opera House holds 2,700 people. This blog was viewed about 20,000 times in 2015. If it were a concert at Sydney Opera House, it would take about 7 sold-out performances for that many people to see it.

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Life updates

Assalamualaikum my fellow readers!

Alhamdulillah. My blog has been recognized globally day by day. Thanks for the 14k views! ❤ Please accept my apology due to one and a half month of nothing. Its just I am too busy with my final year project, assignments and stuff. It is my final year so I hope you’ll understand. Back in boarding school, I never realized that being a science student could be this hard that I have to burn my ass off to get good results. Again, alhamdulillah. I am able to do my best for my two previous semester. Moving on!

My 5th semester starts pretty well. Tearing off my old purse for my scholarship funds was the most great thing that ever happened in my entire life. Alhamdulillah and thank you so much, JPA ❤ To avoid any over-spend money, I keep half of them somewhere I never look. Hahaha. Stay safe and sound there. You never realized how much it mean when you suddenly get a bunch of money and it is quite a lot for a student. Alhamdulillah again. With that, it changes my life 360°.

  1. New laptop

Finally, I can get my hands on bigger laptop. Saying goodbye to my blue Acer Aspire One Netbook. Your 4 years of service will not be washed away. I treasured our moments together. Hahahaha. I put a standard budget for this new laptop which is about RM1500 maximum. Lucky me, I had found an ASUS little store in Plaza Alam Sentral that gave a good deal for my ASUS X453M Notebook. Well of course, the size is bigger and convenient for me.

2. New glasses

If you’re one of my Instagram followers, I’ll bet you know about this. Again, I’m quite lucky that I find a great promotion or may I say a subsidy- glasses. I am looking for bigger glasses which provides a great wide view for me. Phewww. Sounds exhausting to be someone who has an eye problem. Last month, here in UiTM Shah Alam, there’s a booth for this super cheap glasses special for students organized under an optical store, Optik Idaman. Wanna know the price? *drum roll…..its RM50 including the frame and the glasses complete in one set! Believe it or not, I managed to get one. It is beyond my confident level to wear this tho but I tried. You know what, I received so many positive comments from my friends and other people. Looks like someone had made a great choice in life. Hahaha. For students who look for a nice, cheap and trendy glasses, you can go to Optik Idaman at Seksyen 7, Shah Alam near the Bella Ammara boutique and Laman Seni Seksyen 7.

3. New image

Now, I’m trying to change my style a little bit. Pushing away my 45″ see-through square scarves and replace them with thicker scarves material in 50″. I must say I feel safe wearing these kind of hijab. I feel protected. Protect against the society’s judging eyes. Right now, I’m kinda obsessed with shimmering square scarves. The materials is super easy to wear, thick and the best part is, its sparkles! That is why it called Bawal Shimmering. Better to put a colour checklist for this scarves.

To complete my new modest style, I go for a long A cut skirt instead of jeans. I do realized that gaining weight makes me want to covered more. Haha. Not that I’m insincere to make the change but it open my eyes. Imagine this. If you’re skinny or you have a perfect body, you’ll kind of wanna show them to people that you have a dream body thus the clothes you’ll be wearing is not a Muslimah expected to be. So, cover up! For the top, I choose an extra large plain long sleeves. Where I get them? You might wanna look at the man sections when you’re buying clothes. They do have amazing choices for long sleeves T-shirt.

I guess that’s just it. I’m thinking about buying a new phone but still under consideration. Hahaha. I do have a lot of new products and I promise that I’ll do the reviews when I have the time, okay? I love you ❤

Thank you, readers!

My Exhibit A’s blog is now being accepted and appreciated day by day. Alhamdulillah, I’ve reached 10k views already! Thanks a lot my dear readers. I’ll promise to fill up with more informations, reviews and anything interesting for you guys to read even though I am now quite busy with my student’s life. If there’s anything, you can just email me straight away and I’ll reply it immediately. Once again, thanks! A big hug from me ❤

New Policies

Assalamualaikum guys!

I hope that you are now enjoying your day as usual while I’m in such a hurry packing all my stuff for the new semester. Ohh how time flies. Seriously, I’m quite regretting for this semester’s break since I did not make it well-spent and occupied BUT then, I remember something. I do make this break half utilized for a few activities like celebrating the Eid, went to the submission of my scholarship’s forms, went travel with my buddies etc. It was a lot better than other previous holidays and I’ll make sure it can be done again next time.

Alhamdulillah, I’ll be in my final year of my degree studies starting next week. I know that I have so much things to do plus the subjects would be more tough than before. Once again, I’ll take 8 subjects in total including the Project I : Proposal for my FYP. Semester 3 and 4 had been a real roller-coaster ride for me but again, alhamdulillah I nailed it.

Since that I already find my rhyme in my studies, I actually want to set some rigid rules which will be my strictly new policies. Hahaha. Joke on me. Who does this? Am I that lame? I don’t care cause I want to make some changes and it better be good. Nobody want to set up bad rules, huh?

  • Stay away from junk food and fast food & replace ’em with something healthier

Phew. Am I using such a harsh terms? Naahh. I want to set up straight that a few kg of weight loss would be a heavenly realistic event. I’m already taking things slow in my junk/fast food intake. No more chips, no more KFC, no more chicken chop whatsoever. Limitation has to be done! Assuming that I will control my eating habit as soon as possible. A cup of low fat yogurt would be nice for my supper. That’s right. I’m addicted to yogurt now.

  • Controlling my social media addiction

Well, who can? I’m having such a crazy devotion on these internet bastards. Really. It drives me crazy when I always have time to check on my FB, Twitter and Instagram. Even the emails could distracted me from doing anything. I’m not saying that I’m a lunatic in front of the computer 24/7 but seriously, it contributes to my insomnia problem thus lead to my poor eating habits; midnight snacking! Crazy enough? Yup. Cause I’m writing this at 3:48 AM.

  • Get out from Procrastination Ville

My biggest and deranged problem. I always do this whenever I go. I always keep in mind that I have other spare time to do the tasks but the truth is, I don’t. This is the only positive act that is actually bad for me. I intent myself to do any tasks right away when I have free time. Promise!

  • Saving budget : ONLY BUY THE THINGS I NEEDED AND NOT THE ONE I WANT

Girls. I cannot resist or even hesitate to buy new tudung for myself. I guess they are way more important than clothes. Hahaha. Oh please. I have to manage and save money for any other important things. New rules for me, I already start a small business. Oh just selling snacks and chewing gums at the hostels. Nothing big but guess what, I already made some money to be save. Also, me and Z had decided to do a money save plan in our emergency jar. Sounds amazing?

  • Prayers escape no more

I’m having a quite hard time to keep my prayers on track. Allahuakbar. I’ve been such a bad person. From now on, I will do my best and make sure that I would be punctual. Is there any tips that you guys can share with me on how to do this? I realized that Allah had given me such a good health, good results and everything but I’m no expressing my gratitude to Him. InsyaAllah. I’ll do better in this.

  • Talk to everybody

I know it sounds funny but I do have some problems in communication. Am I too shy or what? I guess it is what an introverts have to face. I also know that some people might think that I’m just a mysterious-passive-arrogant kinda girl but you know what, you really don’t know me well. Haha. Who am I to set up your brain to get a better impression of myself? I will brushed up my communication skills and socialize more and by that I mean, socialize in real life. Hehehe.

  • Keeping score in the right pathway

Getting a good results is a great satisfaction that I’ve ever experienced and I will keeping track, insyaAllah. I’m going to adjust my studying methodology way more better that before. They said that,

Build strategies before you go to a war.

I’m gonna calibrate and upgrade my methods to be work more efficiently. Do the past years questions for every subjects’ progress, always have time to revise everything, draw mind maps topically etc.

I hope that this new policies will be applied successfully in terms of believe and also faith. Never forget these two things. I believe I can do it. I will command and dictatoring my body as I wish. Although it may get chaotic or against its will, I’ll do it no matter how. Hahahaha.

Please pray for me and wish me luck. Best of luck to you to. Thanks for reading. Till next time. ❤

Judgemental

Assalamualaikum.

Have you ever wonder that there are so many rules in this world? Although the World War was ended for like hundred years ago, but still we people, never achieved the freedom. Freedom in everything ; mind, opinion, perspectives etc. It keeps roll and roll until we get sick of those things. We never stop. Even we doesn’t express it out thru words, it still stuck in our head.

We always feels twinge of envy spreading in our nerves and dictator-ing our brain. Our heart cannot stop or even slow it down. I wish I have a control button to monitor it every second.

What make you feel that black people is ugly or unattractive?

You wear black clothes like all the time.

You said that black is the colour of high authority, full of mysteries all that stuff.

You passionate about a shiny-black Mercedes.

Oreo is black and you eat it like there’s no tomorrow.

So, stop being racist.

Why do you think that fat people is not as good as you?

You love to eat almost everything. Please, it’s a rhetorical statement.

You like to pinch babies’ chubby cheeks.

You never say no to hug a pretty huge teddy bear.

You cannot deny that loose T-shirts or batwing blouses are super comfy.

So, stop weight stereotyping.

Still, there’s a lot more to tell but I will not emphasize it. People talking about people every time every second without a STOP sign. I bet the animals and plants were laughing together seeing all this. People always thought that those living creatures have no idea of what human being are doing but I do believe that they know everything.

Pink. It’s just a colour. A very sweet and soft colour among others but why people said it only suits on the ladies and little girls? If the pink colour could talk,

I’m tired of my job; covering those lady parts and seriously, I’m getting bored of women, also their smell. I wonder how man smells like.

To be honest, man looks great in pink and if he wear one or use something that’s pink, it really doesn’t mean that he is girlish. You know what I mean.

The stories behind is more important. I wish people could see it directly when they see my face. You only judge when you see the right thing in front of your eyes and not from other people or social media. Geez, social media can be really suck sometimes.

I guess people are turning into a Terminator and just terminate everything they see, especially things that they don’t like. The only thing you do is just eliminate everything. Can you just substitutes them with something positive? Husnudzon all the way.

Stop it, please.

Eid 2015

Assalamualaikum and Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri! 😀

Alhamdulillah. This year’s Eid, I’m having the best Hari Raya celebration since my semester is over and I can enjoy my Raya in maximum! Finally, I can relax without thinking any tests, exams or even assignments within my holiday.

Well, as per usual celebrating our festive month in Perlis with all my relatives. It is awesome! Nothing to say, just want to upload some pictures. Enjoy! 🙂

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Just rocking an ordinary blue batik pattern baju kurung with a blue satin shawl. Simple makes me comfortable. Alhamdulillah 🙂